Wow I have been so away in all senses. I have been in a seemingly endless process of what feels like purifying (see extremely confirming message from AA Jophiel I just posted…(love that I often have all these thought processes and intuitions and perceptions which then set me up to receive in that way) and has been intensely tiring and often very uncomfortable. It’s still ongoing, but I feel like I am getting back on my feet a little, confirmed by the urge to post (which has been just gone for ages!).
Have been sending so much love through here as I am loving myself through such deep change that is really such a frontier now. I feel like the waves have become almost indistinct as they have speeded up to such an extent that there’s little-to-no break between them. And they are different; purification in one area followed immediately by expansion in another, usually all in some way simultaneous too, just shifting focus continually as necessary.
In so many and very deep ways I feel like I am facing my ultimate human pains; actual expectation of failing or never quite measuring up, not actually being worthy of love, doubt that any of this is real (such a shocker but it’s there in some way so I just have to acknowledge it til it’s not any more!), the endlessness of this cycle of crazy ascension experience, and the ever-present exhaustion of having a mind that’s still bouncing about in the ‘old’ system in certain ways, like a echo. I consider all these to at root be about my perceived separation from source. Just don’t have the energy to do anything other than trust it will iron itself out if I just allow, acknowledge and love. Oh yes, and the ever-present challenge of feeling so at home in such subtle energies and having to find my ways of integrating that into form, as this material humanness is not yet matching what feels like home to me…
So I just wanted to say hi! I’m here and I’m loving you. I have had so so many lovely creative ideas and really like a growing of beautiful creative energy core as all this purifying has been going on. So we’ll see where that leads. And knowing you are all flowing along just perfectly. And getting better at knowing that for myself with each moment that brings more clarity on just who the hell this Sara is anyway.
Haha love you ♡